I deserve to eat this.

I deserve to eat this.

As Rachel and I were coming home she told me that she wished in my blogs that I dug in a little deeper like I do at times on facebook about what hard days are. I had planned on doing an introspective blog once a week but missed last week so here it goes.

 

When i started losing weight a long time ago there was this really simple premise. Eat less and work out more. I didnt really worry about the small things or sweat the big ones. It was a 1-2 punch everyday and that was what worked. If it was tuna with mustand 3x a day or shitty lettuce salads with flavorless dressings. So along the way I became  “runner” which i think my first 5k i was like 280 lbs or something.

So after awhile of being a runner I started to develope this ” i deserve this food” mentality. Now this is still one of my #1 weaknesses as a runner today. I am constantly battling the ” i can have this because i did that” issue. So lets talk the TRUTH about it.

I think when we began to run a lot, crossfit, exercise or whatever it is you do you do have an increase in hunger. I mean i can tell you after lifting an hour or 2 in the gym i can feel the hanger coming on strong. But where I go wrong and i think many people do is that instead of eating exactly what we need to refuel we eat what we want to eat. Once we eat something totally shitty we tell ourselves that we deserved it. I will further dive in and add that I have done the same thing with rewards.

Rewarding ourselves in life with food is a cycle that can lead to damaging results as well. In my own life I have cut out most of the things that I turned to to satisfy my addictions. The only things that are left for me to “abuse” is food and exercise. While most people laugh about abusing exercising I know for a fact I have done it as well. If you are so consumed with weight that you are stuffing down food and then going out to hammer miles just to work the cake off you have a problem.

Food at the end of the day is a source of fuel for our bodies. The hard part is that we need it and we have to have it. So how do we stop this cycle and how do i personally do it.

I think this is the hardest thing for me to do when it comes to lose weight. I think i have 4-6 days in a row where i feel on top of the world. Im killing my diet, my miles and then someone says hey lets make nachos.. Or hey lets go grab a burger. My mind says ” go ahead Rob” you deserve that meal you have been working really hard. My mind says Rob rewards yourself man you are doing really well.

Shortly after the meal comes regret. Regret for eating too much, something completely off base from my diet or indulging too much into something. Shortly after regret the cycle start to form again. Once regret kicks in usually for me its a bit of im a failure mixed in with depression. So then the next day you get up feeling like total shit. You step on the scale and poof back above where you started just like that.

Pretty shitty cycle huh.

So how do we/I fix it? I think the challenge is to look at food differently and associate it in a new way. We should stop using food as a reward for exercising which will help to keep it from being a prize to go get. What if I rewarded my hard work with a charitable action? What if I rewarded myself with a massage or a day at the spa? Those kind of rewards keep my frame of mind correct and away from the cycle.

 

The other part is deserving food for working out hard or more. For me the only way to combat this is to track my calories and make commitments to eating healthy after runs. Part of the reason i have been pushing a more plant based diet is to eliminate the thoughts of many foods. I work better with either a black or white mentality vs a moderation type approach. I think if you are a person who can moderate foods easily then yours might be just to track what you are eating so that you can moderately consume without overindulging.

Needless to say this will and is the hardest part of exercising a lot and trying to lose weight. I think this is why a lot of runners gain weight while running more than they ever have before. Just because we run 3 hours surely dosent give us the right to knock down 2 plates of food and think we are even. The truth is that if we are trying to be healthy than what we put in our bodies after runs should be just as important as the runs themselves.

Hope this helps someone and just typing it makes me think more on how i can do better on this as well.

Day 16 of 110. #110for110

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