I am reading a book currently on leadership and how to lead people. I have been a manager or owner of a business since I was 4 years old so business is more second nature at this point. But I am reading the book as to add more skills or tools as I continue to encourage my employes and help them become better people in/out of the office.
Life for me the last few months has been hectic. While most people I think find day to day life overwhelming I seem to try and pile on as much pressure on myself as I can. But then again I really cant complain since this is the only way I know how to live. Going 100% all the time has its good and bad times. When i wasnt sober this meant the worst but I was still a kind person behind all the misery. Now a days the great part of being 100% is that I can juggle multiple schedules, events and things to do all at once. The bad thing is that when I cant do them and get behind my mind starts to short circuit. I shut down from everyone and start on a one sided get everything done fest which is if often a chaotic mess.
So the past few months I am trying to understand balance. I have seen that running 100% of the time, all the time, every workout dosent work.. Hence the injuries, time off and stress of financially affording surgery,shots etc etc… So i have learned this.. I think… Well my mind has been wrapped around cross training with the help of my coach Michele “BAD ASS” Yates.. She has been an intricate part of me finding my way in ultra running and also balancing more of my time. My week days are a lot harder on me now but I dont have to require so much time on the weekends. This has started the mental process of me seeing alternative fitness activities.
So I am starting the process before the end of the year to engage this next year in acro yoga, more yoga, cross fit, climbing and slack lining. Some of these I have done in the past most I have not…It seems strange to dive into another ocean of sports but I need the balance. I love to run as much as the next person but I cant just depend on running to fix every emotional problem I have. I have for the past 2 years really leaned on running to get me through the tough times and I know its one of the main reasons I am sober. I know I can run whenever I want to to find my peace….. But I am also trying to race as well and running has to be part of a plan and not just a spur of the moment enraged pace all the time. So with the addition of other activities I will find balance.
So with all that being said someone told me something recently that they digested and have let swirl around their head… When you listen to people often they say something usually a phrase that gets caught in the air. You hear it, You digest it but you cant get it down. I have found in my life that these phrases, comments etc arent meant to be instantly digested. They are meant to be heard, taken in, thought about and then acted upon….
So my friend tells me a long story of how his client and him are having an emotional conversation about life, positivity and change. She writes to him Post Script.. “You Matter:…..
What an interesting way to leave an email… YOU MATTER….. my friend tells me the long story of them sharing information, and how this makes him feel….
So the reason that I am bringing this to your attention is that this is REAL…. this is a true statement. not filled with bshit lies, crappy run on sentences like my blogs or artificial information.
Simple, plain and TRUE….
I am telling you this for a reason. I and this friend are soon launching a new business. The goal is to reach those of you who are making a difference in your OWN and OTHERS lives.. Soon enough we will launch our business and then drive the common factor that we know is TRUE…. That people MATTER. That out there is someone who has it tough… Who has been abused, hurt, fked up like us… Someone out there that has let life slip away, has hid from the pain and has lost themselves along the way.
And trust me I was that guy. I pushed away all of my pain of being abused for years. My dad beating the shit out of me for years. I ate what I wanted and I just forced it down. To the point where all that was left was a 30 year old man…. 347 lbs.. divorced, smoking, drugs, alcoholic…. wasting away….
But you know what happened one day. Someone cared about me… Someone other than those so-called parents i was supposed to have… Someone stopped me and said hey man you have to change…. Or you will die.. And oddly enough that was enough… That person ( who is the person above in the story) stood by me and gave me an idea. An idea that I could be better, that this life could change. That this life has possibilities….He made me feel like I MATTERED to him…
So the next 30 days for me are going to be fun… and then I run… (hence the topic)…
I have the opportunity this weekend to be a co-Race Director with a friend of mine in the group for the first Annual HATR trail race… I find this process to be wonderful in learning and I cant wait to see all of these people lined up on this little rabbit trail we call home and race.. The emotions, planning and anxiousness has really been overwhelming but I am so ready to do this..
My Snowdrop 55 Hour Race
The next few weeks will be my hardest to get through. This blog has taken me a week to write only because I have never openly discussed my attachment to the Snow Drop Foundation 55 Hour race much…even now after feeling somewhat prepared my eyes pour and my nose runs with remembrance of our God son Kees Poole.
My man Kees Poole was diagnosed with cancer in November of 2012. Here is a brief story of his battle:
Kees Poole, was diagnosed with a very rare form of cancer in November of 2012. Since that time he has been under treatment at MD Anderson in Houston, Tx. Through 4 months of chemotherapy and 20 days of Proton Radiation Therapy, Kees has endured very well. Never complaining and continuing to explore the world as he grows. This past week Kees needed to be admitted to have fluids replaced do to dehydration consistent with his radiation therapy (his tumor being found in his neck, making swallowing difficult). While at the hospital Kees suffered a seizure and a subsequent MRI revealed 4 major tumors in his brain and innumerable cancerous tendrils permeating throughout. After careful consultation with his care team and deep reflection his parents took a courageous decision to end treatment for his cancer and bring him home. Kees is on hospice care now.
This was written by his loving grandmother to friends a few days before Kees Passed away On May 6th.
Here is the site for our sweet boy Kees Poole HERE
As my wife and I stood my our best friends side we were able to witness the power of love for a child and the power of a child. Kees Poole lit up everyone room he was in and greeted everyone with the joy that we should all have in life. We were honored to be a part of such a wonderful life that Kees lived.Through the process of Kees life we really began to see how much he MATTERED to others. How much one small boy could change the world with just a smile or a dunk of a basketball. He lived a life that we should all be trying to obtain daily. He was happy, smiling and loving no matter what.
I write his initials on my bottle caps or my shoes and wear his bright yellow bracelet in racing. Its always there for me to take him with me on my adventures. I know how much he loved his mom and dad taking him on the trails while he laughed in the runner and I hope he laughs at me when I am falling or flying downhill.
So In 27 days I will stand at Snow Drop Foundation 55 Hour Race and I will run for Kees and a cause that he would have loved.
I will run for the life that he led and the support of Snow Drop Foundation in their attempts to help provided scholarships for college bound pediatric cancer patients and childhood cancer survivors while raising awareness and funding for continued research to cure childhood cancer. To support my page for this event please visit.donate to http://snowdrop.donordrive.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=donordrive.participant&participantID=1006
The race is from Dec 30th-Jan 1st and the event is open to the public to come out and support the race. here is the official site http://snowdropfoundation.org/event/snowdrop-ultra-55-hour-race-relay/
I am sure that I have no idea of what going to happen over those 3 days. But i know this…..
I will stand, probably cry and smile. I will remember the sweet young man that I had the pleasure of knowing.. and I will run for him.